For several years I've been dreading the 'empty nest'.....I knew it was coming but I was NOT looking forward to it. I have a wonderful husband, who I love very much and there are some aspects of the 'empty nest' that are quite appealing. There are also those parts of it that I know will be difficult and will take a lot of adjustment. For so long I've been somebody's mom (I'll still be their mom, but you know what I mean) and a lot of my identity has been wrapped up in being that mom. First I was the mom of a transplant kid, then I was the mom of three little ones under the age of 4 who didn't get to sleep through the night for six years (my kids were the ones who didn't sleep all night till they were two years old), then I was the mom of a cancer survivor, now I'm the mom who lost her child from cancer. I still have all that history but there are no little ones to take care of, to hug good-night, to go to battle for. Being that 'mama bear' was such a huge part of my life - I'm not quite sure what to do now.
Now, Alex is away at college and flourishing, Ian was suddenly ripped from our lives and gone much sooner than we every expected, and Amy leaves tomorrow to return to college after spending her last summer home. I've done what I set out to do - raise my children to honor God and be productive, independent, loving adults. Maybe I was too good at my job - I worked myself right out of a position. With Eric out of town on business I'm having to jump into this 'empty nest' stuff with both feet - right up to my waist.
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